Not give up.

I haven't felt depressed in a really long time.
I haven't had any of those days where I physically can't get out of bed,
where I really really don't want to.
I never knew there was a difference between sad and depressed.
Because before, I was only always depressed. Because nothing happened.
Or I didn't let anything happen. Or it doesn't matter, but now
So many great things are happening. So much at once that it's too good to be true.
So one of those huge great things goes wrong.
And I feel so so sad. Like my heart is breaking.
But not like I want to die.
Because I have to apologize and try and fix it
or I have to move on and find something new.
Not give up.