I got a job application for dunkin donuts yesterday. I really need a job. I spent most of my money friday night at the mall. And now I have no money to spend when I go out.
I've been feeling more social lately. And so I've been in a pretty decent mood.
I've been getting to know the people in my family. I don't know why I never did, but I like the changes I am making. I want to become brave, and happy. I think, the people I know haven't changed, but my attitude about them has. My interests and values have changed. And I've learned that its important to me that the people I spend time with think deeply, and talk openly, and have a mature sense of immaturity. ...I guess you could call that last one an oxymoron, but it makes total sense to me. And I've learned that everyone has their own memories, and we're not alone in our suffering. Everyone has heartache to deal with at one time or another. And those things will never go away. You learn to live with it, or it will eat you alive. And it kind of sounds like I'm giving advice right now, but really I'm writing it for my own benefit. Sometimes I go back and read things I've posted, like if I've had a bad day, and it will just calm me down. And some days I wont write anything, I'll have no words filling my head, or sometimes to many to organize into sentences.
I actually write in a notebook sometimes (old schoool, I know right?) and I write myself notes and put pictures in it and everythingg.
I've been feeling more social lately. And so I've been in a pretty decent mood.
I've been getting to know the people in my family. I don't know why I never did, but I like the changes I am making. I want to become brave, and happy. I think, the people I know haven't changed, but my attitude about them has. My interests and values have changed. And I've learned that its important to me that the people I spend time with think deeply, and talk openly, and have a mature sense of immaturity. ...I guess you could call that last one an oxymoron, but it makes total sense to me. And I've learned that everyone has their own memories, and we're not alone in our suffering. Everyone has heartache to deal with at one time or another. And those things will never go away. You learn to live with it, or it will eat you alive. And it kind of sounds like I'm giving advice right now, but really I'm writing it for my own benefit. Sometimes I go back and read things I've posted, like if I've had a bad day, and it will just calm me down. And some days I wont write anything, I'll have no words filling my head, or sometimes to many to organize into sentences.
I actually write in a notebook sometimes (old schoool, I know right?) and I write myself notes and put pictures in it and everythingg.
You know what? My phone just rang. Let me get back to my life now, hah.
I just made plans to go to the mall tomorrow since theres no school. And it looks like I'll be watching my friends buy stuff.
Just one more thought,
2008 was such a rainy year. I have a good feeling '09 will have some blue skies.
3 comments:
You keep yourself busy--never fall to ennui--always give yourself something to do, or at least have something to dream about. I am your follower now! Cheers!
Ever Yours,
Clayrn Darrow
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thanks for following (:
Your music is making an interesting audio collage with my Pandora music. Keep writing!
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